Some days stand out more prevalent than others..with memories, sounds or scents...sometimes all three..some a flashback and some I can playback almost the whole day or scene and see details...
Valentine's Day was the last holiday spent together...every year pink carnations and daisies adorned the table with Jelly Bellies or gummy worms (not a chocolate girl)yet in 2007 silk roses and a teddy bear sat on the table.."These will last forever and you wont have a collection of vases under the sink anymore" he proudly said...who knew that these would be the last gift, a forever reminder of Valentines Day 2007, perched on the shelf in my room...still there.
I am not dwelling or grieving..I am no longer sad but life changes and a loss leaves a mark. It is impossible not to feel or have a reminder. Regardless of what the experience, we have memories..some more prominent than others..
It seems to be the one day a year I have a reminder that life is precious and changes quickly...within 2 weeks of the Valentine's Day my life dramatically changed, no longer were we planning our future, our wedding, our new home...I was planning a funeral and selling the house and comforting the kids...
Valentines is a day of love and sweethearts, of a reminder that we say I Love You or Be Mine..it is a day of hearts, candy and flowers..it is a day to remind someone they are special...but not just the one day...every day we should remember and say Thank you, I Appreciate You..to truly listen and spend quality time with those important to us
When I was asked to write this blog it took me a while to figure out WHY me..I am single with a houseful of teen boys and have just started back into the dating world...my Valentines Day outlook is very different from many. But my outlook on the importance of life is strong and the value of those in our lives is great..and so not every day is hearts and flowers but everyday is a chance at life and to share and give..
